God's Gutter Ball


When I came to your bedside

that night, my lip quivering

in a premature panic you

taught me a secret.

“Just count the seconds between

the thunder and the strike,”

so I did.

One,

two,

three.

“God is just bowling,”

you said with a cup of tea

in your hand

coaxing me into bed

and hushing my tears.

When the thunder barrels

down the clouded lanes

illuminating the somber

sky with God’s strikes

I think only of you in your silk nightgown

On that Wednesday night.

And as the storm moves closer

I am not frightened by it.

I count the seconds,

one,

two,

three.

You have gone so far I cannot count the distance.

The thought hits me like

a perfect strike to the chest

—God has no gutter balls.

I am frightened

only of

losing

you.

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