"SELF CADAVER: TRAUMA PROCESSING AS THE ETYMOLOGY OF PUNK" by Kate Wilson

05/02/2018

 

 

so the joke goes like this:

worthless person

tell me something i don’t know

you child of chaos

witch woman

you sound waves coursing through veins

all say; no do

burning cop car without the molotov

shabbat sans יהוה

dyke who fucks men

for the aesthetic

coward

screams no, but means yes

means ruin my life for me

so i have something to scream about

whore without a choice

(or that’s what they force on you,

say trauma, say damage, say sorrow, anguish, suffering, damage

say there are a lot of ways to say I want to die

but none of them are right)

i put myself here but i don’t know how to leave

in that legend i’m sisyphus

and also the boulder

always the boulder

one must imagine that boulder miserable

say i want to kill myself but i’m afraid of doing it wrong

i’ll burn myself at the stake

light the match

never sure if i’m the cave or the fire in it

never sure if i’m the burning or the ash left

afterthought

say open me up

look at all the moving parts

look at how i don’t even

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Kate is from Mammoth Lakes, California, and currently resides in Salt Lake City, Utah where they are working towards a BA in English and an MA in teaching at Westminster College. Kate is a Virgo and lesbian who loves swing sets, their dog, and their girlfriend. Their work has previously been published by Pressure Gauge Press, Write About Now, and Rising Phoenix Press, among others. You can send Kate photos of the ocean on Twitter at @pasta_slut.

 

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