Two Poems by Vanessa Maki

lack of self care

cranes in the sky - solange is sampled in this (the italics are the lyrics)

i take one deep breath

that barely fills my lungs but i still do it

& i think of what self care

should really be like

i tried to drink it away

& how so many black women

shoulder too damn much

how it breaks metaphorical backs

continues the cycle

of a lack of self care

no bath bombs

no chill afternoon

no extended stress relief

i’ll cry it away

don’t you cry baby

haunted houses

originally published in sublet press

somebody needs to come over/ so they can tell me / why it all has to be on my shoulders / why

must black girls have to hold the world up by our pinky fingers / then provide amusement /

warmth / tenderness / why do we need to live in haunted houses? / entertain or south our ghosts / can

we actually be alive for ourselves? / can we actually live where there is life?

Vanessa Maki is a queer writer,artist & other things. She’s full of black girl magic & has no apologizes for that. Her work has appeared in various places like Really System & others. She is also forthcoming in a variety of places. She’s founder/EIC of rose quartz magazine & is involved in other spaces as well. Follow her twitter & visit her site .